I am happy that I am still part of the working world.
Every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday
I put my pains and trouble at side
and throw myself into my job's tasks.
This keeps me off thinking and feeling
and checking and evaluating
what's going on in my body and mind as to Lyme.
Fine! ... but.... stress becomes a problem more and more,
and I feel stressed fast.
What might have caused me a laugh at 30 years,
have been a challenge at 40 years,
has become an enormous attack on my body and mind nowadays.
Hypersensible to e-smog (an office full of electric and electronic stuff) too,
I feel my skills fading like snow in spring.
One day work and I am done for the next.
Thinking... God, let me retire as soon as possible.
After a stressless weekend... I am motivated and really want to go on working.
An endless up and down.
Yes, like a dance.
Just have not yet found out the diverse rhythms.
One for sure is work on/work off.
